.. The Gift ..

Weee.Weee.Weee.
Just finished a non-stop reading.
" The Gift by Richard Paul Evans"
**Thumb UP UP UP **
Started from last night till this morning. Minus 4 sleeping hour cause chased to bed by mom.
High Satisfaction NOW.
*Shake it Shake it*

.. Virus Infected ..

There goes two month! There goes my two month break!
Mixed up feeling. One part of me cant wait for the new semester, while another part of me still cant get myself out of my bed. Angel vs Demon again!

Something pop up in my mind.

"What have I been doing these two months?"

Nice question. Reading back my previous post, I can see how this overwhelming laziness control my whole soul not to move or even blog. As a result, maybe I will start to use my brain to recall what I have done and post it up here. But too bad. Not today. There is still some laziness in me now! I seriously got infected by this virus!

Even so, I still have a great break. Not to say really GREAT, but at least personally I think it's fun and I do not just waste my time in sleeping and eating. (even I do these most) Let me write down a list what have I did.

• Went to Malacca town, a visit and also farewell for a friend who already in Germany now.
• SKYTREX!!! Being Tarzan is so fun!!
  
• Famine 30. The first time in my life starving for 30 hours.
  
• Club that always make me broke but allow me to dance till drop.
  
• Work and work. Earn and spend in the same time.
  
• Go through a one week detoxing meal is so no fun but manage to kick off some weight which I think I gained back now?!
  
• Sleep till my ass get burn from the sun shine. That's what I enjoyed the most!

Okay. I realized I did nothing much while I am actually recalling all these down. And that's how I spend my 2 month unwisely. Cool. I never deny I have a bad time management. But anyhow, I did missed out lot of thing that I suppose to do like write myself a 20 years diary for my coming 21 present. Do I still manage to do so before I reach my big day, hope so. IF MY LAZINESS GET CURE!!

Think that's all for this post. Time for bed! Night world!! =)

. . Trip or Thing . .

I am in a dilemma now. What should I do?

Singapore trip or a camera for myself?*

I am planning to give myself a backpack trip on my birthday as my birthday present for myself. Everything seems so perfect as the flight ticket and rooms are affordable for me. Air Asia returns ticket are just RM 95. Besides, I would like myself to experience staying in dorm where is budget and also allow me to meet people.

But if I get myself a camera, I will not have chance to do so. I planned to buy a camera first before I start to travel all around the world so that I am able to record and take all those beautiful places that I step on.

What shall I do? People, give me an idea.
A camera or a trip for myself?

.. Shah Alam ..

How well do you know you hometown?

Do you know where is the best food?

Do you know what is the best place to chill out?

Do you even know what is the famous place and future development going to occur in your hometown?

Well, sorry to say, I dont know. All I know is the name of my hometown and some road at Shah Alam.

The best food?! Lolx...Ramli burger or Keropop Lekok?!

Best place to chill? My house?

Development? Never bother!

And guess what, I only realized it just after coming back from Malacca. I shall write it in different way. I only realize I know nothing about Shah Alam after staying there for 20 good years! Well, it's something that quiet ashame. So, do you know your hometown well?

.. Jungle Tracking ..

I start to get addicted with jungle tracking.

I never thought that I will get addicted to this. It's gave me relaxing feeling and make me feel energetic than ever. Passing by those tall tree, stepping on the dried leaf, smell of those fresh and breeze air and not to forget listening to the bird's crackle made me feel so free and natural.

What so amazing about this?!

It's all about the changes that occurred in me. Honestly speaking, I am not a sport person. I hate to make my heart beat bump increased. I used to hate this activity so much. When I was young, dad always forced me to go with him as both of my parents track every week. But I will find all sort of reason to turn them down and went back to bed. *you have to wake up at 6 to track* But months before, I started to join them each time I am back home and guess what, I fall in love with it. Yes, it is very tiring through out the journey. I have to climb up the mountain which is round 50 to 60 degree slide down and even 200 steps of stairs. Imagine the feeling I have when stepped out from the jungle. A person with an exhausted leg also smelly plus sweaty body. It's about the achievement I get in myself that I succeed to challenge thing that used to be my nightmare. It's about the change and development in me.

Maybe to you will be something normal, but every development in me I found it special as it's a shown of my growth. =)

.. Lost Home ..

I am back home at SHAH ALAM safely!!

After a long period. Not to say very long, its just that each time I was back, I was in a rush to get back KL on the next day which is totally different compare to now, sitting in front of my brother's computer, feel relaxed and start blogging again.

After staying in SHAH ALAM for the past 20 years *ever since I was born*,I am shame to say or admit that I lost my way home when friend dropped me home just now. Well, it more shame to admit that this is not the first time, but the second time! Trust me, this is not a drama series act of what and I said this for real.

To recalled back my memories, the first time I was with Kristine and Steven. They fetched me home after a bicycling session at Bukit Cahaya. Perhaps I had not been home for too long, I was not aware of the construction that happened at my place eventually had closed down one of the road that suppose to bring me home. For god sake, I was panic for 3 second but thank god we still managed to find a u-turn to bring me home.

As for this time is more ridiculous. I lead the wrong way home. I went to the anti way that bring me back home. I lead the way to the City of Shah Alam, PKNS that is totally one south and north . Gosh, I never imagined this can be happened. Can this due to my amnesia? I shall not give myself all sort stupid reason. The only valid reason for these is I have not been back home for a very long time.

I started to wonder the purpose of home for me. Home seems to be a place that I go back not even 20 times a year where also a place that provide me shelter. Home seems to be an unfamiliar place for me now. A place that I have stayed for 20 years seems to be something different now. This is really scary. It's a sense of insecurity.

Not only home, but also family member. How well do you know your siblings? How well do you know your parents? Sorry to admit that I don't really know well. I don't know what is the latest thing that happened at home. I don't know what how serious will this going to be. Worried and insecure feeling rushed into my heart. I passed everything in life but failed one of the most important subject which is FAMILY.

.. Poor Feet ..

It's 5.39 am!! Good Morning people!!

I am still awake..after clubbing...!! Cricket sound from the balcony...early prayer by our Islamic friends...the dawn is breaking soon!!! What a peaceful morning after an excitement midnight!! Wish there is a cup of espresso in front of me now..!! I miss the aroma...!!

I don't feel good now. Alcohol makes my stomach feel one kind. Type of want to vomit but not type of feeling. What making me most uncomfortable is both of my dear legs...!! They are aching like nobody business now!! *Ouch* I should put the blame on my heels!! I wonder would it get worst if I get up later?!!

Anyhow, it's going to be morning soon. Or it's already morning now. Just to drop by to rant about my poor little leg. Leave a page of history for them before I am lazy to write about this..!! Even though it's pain now, but I enjoyed the dance tonight!!! I love the me who danced till drop!!!

.. Club ..

Issaz : It's party time!! Let's move it tonight!!!

Yaw: We must truly deeply enjoy tonight!

Shaney: Okie...!

From the above dialogue, both of the above person are so eager for the move in the club tonight. But not me. The mood have not yet arrive in me yet. Or I shall say the mood flew off? Nope! It didnt flew off. It just didnt arrived. Why? I am not in a mood?! I am not a club person?! I guesse both tot!

A words of my friends come into my mind. " Huh? Teacher go clubbing?! " Further explain, I am a part time tutor. Teacher also a normal human being okay!!!Like I will bump into my student there..! =P

From that moment, I am view as a clubber to them, even I dont really go there. But, something come across my mind. Am I a clubber?! I shall admit that I am not. I enjoyed the excitement of music and lost myself in the dance floor once awhile. Being someone that I might not being or do something that I might not doing when I am awake. Eventually, this is a way to run off from reality and all those shit in mind. Slowly, clubbing have been viewed a place to numb and lost all one sensory and mind to me.

But to some old folk, I shall say respective parents, club is a dangerous place to them. Due to all those negative news of pills, date rape or even dark magic, club is a big no for them.
Reason: We are too 'young' to have the ability to protect ourselves. Okay, I shall admit that parents forever view there child as 3 years old kid who have no self awareness toward danger. Still, it is an action of care from their heart.

As for some friends who are really crazy in club, club is an amazing place for them I suppose. To them, is about dance and still dance. A place that allow them to release their stress or desire which allow them to be boundary less.
Reason: They enjoy the free in mind. The free of cared or even burden. It's just like a little bird which fly on the sky without bothering a thing.

As for some friends who dont like to club , club is a smoky and noisy place for them. They never like that crowd feeling. They prefer to be in the bookstore or enjoy a cup of tea at some cafe. But this doesnt mean they are nerd or some goodie. They just dont like the environment of smoke and too much sensory attack.
Reason: Environment problem! Felt stress then relax!

I shall stop doing my analysis here due to my bore-ness. *In holidays now* Stop here and have to rush for work. Anyhow, I just wish the mood of club will arrive by the night itself. I shall start to look at my wardrobe and search for my dress!! Adios!!! =)